Diaz did a lot of going back and forth in her life, and it’s reflected in her memoir. The way she goes between anecdotes parallels the way she went between homes and lives growing up. She went from living with her mom to living with her dad, and even between them they moved houses a lot. The people she hung out with differed depending on her age and where she was in her life; in school she had Flaca, Boogie and China, her marriage with Cheito, in the Navy she had Jones and G-mo (Diaz, 213, 222). After Mercy died, her feelings about her grandmother flip-flopped. When she first heard the news, she was reminded of the last conversation they had, in which they spoke to each other like they never had before. For her it was almost as if she was speaking with Abuela, someone she did have a good relationship with. When speaking with her little cousin before the funeral, Diaz learned that Mercy had a good relationship with her other granddaughter, one that was also Afro-Latina, described as having dark skin, eyes and hair. This made Diaz question why she never had a relationship like that with Mercy, and made her realize the similarities between her, her mom, and her grandmother. Her multiple suicide attempts were with her mother’s pills, whereas Mercy was found with five empty bottles of sleeping pills (254). In this particular section, Diaz does a lot of self-reflection on who she is, and what home is to her.