What goes into one’s decision when it comes to picking a book to read? Is it based on how captivating the cover is, or how interesting the synopsis is? There are so many reasons as to why someone picks a certain book to read over another. In this case, books that deal with how we handle complicated human relationships and try to resolve the conflicts that arise is what compels me to read a book. I would like to read Kiese Laymon’s Heavy because this memoir allows us to learn about a narrative that is oftentimes overlooked. It delves into the struggles of trauma, the reality of being a Black boy and man in America, and the emotional turmoil our relationships can put us through. I think that by reading this memoir we can come to understand not only Laymon’s reality, but possibly the realities of others going through similar situations as well.
There were many reasons that went into my decision to read Heavy. When we were completing the judge a book by its cover activity, the synopsis and the reviews immediately caught my attention. Words such as “fearlessly”, “defiant”, “vulnerable”, along with many others were used to describe Laymon’s memoir. These words explain to the reader that this will be a very raw and emotional story that explores different aspects of Laymon’s life. Just from this initial exposure to the book, it’s easy to become curious about the struggles that Laymon went through to have this memoir be labelled as powerful and provocative. In addition, when reading a review about the memoir, this view that Laymon was completely honest about his story is further driven home. This was done in the hopes of relaying his trauma and freeing himself from it (Key, 2019). Writing can become therapeutic, especially when it pertains to such a serious topic. The desire to read this memoir doesn’t only have to do with his struggles, but also the way he used this as an opportunity to address things that were weighing heavily on his mind.
While learning more about Heavy, I was captivated by Laymon’s storytelling surrounding his interpersonal relationships and how he navigated them. In order to get a better understanding of the author’s work, we were told to read another piece of writing from the various authors. “Quick Feet” details Laymon’s stay with his grandmother and his vulnerable interaction with her. He explains how although he loved his grandmother, he hated having to stay at her house for various reasons. One of those reasons being that he hated seeing her work for a white family. Although this family had the means to afford a washer and dryer, they still made his grandmother wash their filthy clothing . This all led to him resenting the white family, but his grandmother made him understand that this was, unfortunately, one of the only ways to survive in Mississippi (Laymon, 2018). In the same piece, he also addresses how he came to confide in his grandmother about his sexual and physical abuse. It was difficult to do, and his grandmother’s reaction to this was kind of cryptic, but it was a start on his journey of becoming honest about these things. He felt that he could be honest with her because they loved each other. It’s clear that if he didn’t feel safe with her he probably wouldn’t have confessed. Throughout the memoir, he touches on other relationships with those around him and I’m looking forward to seeing how he writes about these relationships. The short snippets that I have read have been very emotional and vulnerable in nature. Laymon’s willingness to address these topics, despite how serious, makes his memoir more compelling and increases my desire to read it.
Additionally, Laymon’s honesty in telling his story really motivated me to want to read his memoir. While doing the internet assignment, I came across a video of Laymon reading a chapter from his book and then proceeding to answer questions from this audience. Laymon didn’t shy away from the questions that some might label too sensitive. He wanted to get his point across that honesty was the only way to address past struggles even if it was hard to say the words most times. Laymon acknowledged that it’s not often that Black men write stories about love and trauma, and that he wanted Heavy to serve as a story about just that (Strand Book Store, 2018). It’s difficult to find a memoir by a Black man that touches on these subject matters, so it’s important to read these types of narratives to show that people are willing to listen. As Laymon states in the same video, he wanted to feel “heavier” and substantive which is why he shared his story. A whole lot of people and their experiences go unheard of and ignored because they’re hesitant to share stories similar to Laymon’s. This is why it’s important to pay attention to these narratives and uplift the authors who write uncommon memoirs. We can help people with similar experiences become “heavier” as Laymon said, and we can come to understand the realities of people who are typically ignored. Laymon’s honesty serves to make people understand and connect to his story, and this along with the fact that it’s an uncommon narrative are some of the many reasons why I would like to read his memoir.
It’s sometimes hard to pinpoint what exactly makes one want to read a book. In the case of Kiese Laymon’s Heavy, the fact that it’s an uncommon narrative and it addresses various, serious topics makes me more interested in reading it. Hopefully, reading this book will allow us to learn about the struggles he underwent and also understand stories from people who aren’t usually in the spotlight.
Bibliography
Key, J. (2019). Kiese Laymon. Heavy. Prairie Schooner, 93(2), 189. https://link.gale.com/apps/doc/A607709278/AONE?u=cuny_ccny&sid=bookmark-AONE&xid=cd36a34e
Laymon, K. (2018). Quick Feet. The Virginia Quarterly Review, 94(3). https://www.vqronline.org/memoir-articles/2018/10/quick-feet
Strand Book Store. (2018, October 31). Kiese Laymon | Heavy: An American Memoir [Video]. YouTube. https://youtu.be/_w7xkpQnr24